Let it be done according to your word!


Luke 1:38  And Mary said, "Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word." And the angel departed from her.

The past few months have been tough for me. I found myself swinging between wild, exhilarating happy emotions and sadness mingled with pain. If you know me, you will know that I am a happy clappy kind of person. I don’t take too well to being sad and depressed. I like to solve my problems quickly so that I can return to my happy state. These past few weeks I have faced situations that have been totally out of my control. I have faced a lot of uncertainties and hated not knowing what would happen next. I felt for a long time that God was saying I should surrender to Him and let Him be God but the thought of not being in control really scared me. Strangely I knew that I did not have the power to change my circumstances yet I didn’t want to entrust them into His hands and allow His will to be done. I wanted God to do exactly as I instructed Him in my prayers, saying that sounds really funny now but I really did.

I must say Mary was brave to have responded, “May it be done according to Your will” when the angel told her that she would be pregnant with Jesus. I would have insisted that I would only have the baby if God made sure that my boyfriend married me before people suspected I was pregnant. I would have had a long list of conditions for having a baby I had not planned for. How often do we give God conditions for how He should work in our lives? How often are our prayers ultimatums to the God who created us? We pray in Jesus’ name yes, but we are saying you better do this my way or else. Look out for future blogs where I will tell you all about this situation that has had me swinging between being happy and sad. 

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